So, I know I'm really bad at updating my blog, and I know this is supposed to be about Oleysia, but since she said no to being adopted, I really don't know what's next in our relationship with her.
But, since I don't really have news on her or anything I'm going to tell you a little about my new brother, Elijah. He's a sweet boy, but it's hard. He's a stranger living in our house. This is by far the hardest thing our family has ever gone through. I can't really explain, because you have to go through it to truly understand. And that's Ok, we don't need people to understand, just care.
So, I'm having issues, with being lonely, overwhelmed, and just having a hard time bonding with him. He does stuff that is kinda like, "Why in the world would you do that?" And I know, he's had four years without a family and parents to guide him, but it still stinks at times.
It's also hard because right now we're not a family to him. He's only four, he doesn't know what a "family" is. He doesn't like us kids. He wants Mommy and Daddy to himslef and the competition to go away. To him, since he hasn't really attached to us yet, we're just another orphanage with only two nannies and 7 other kids. To him "Mommy and Daddy" is just another name. They could be "Red and Blue" and it'd probably have the same meaning to him right now.
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I know it's going to take time, and I'm Ok with that, that doesn't mean It's any less harder, but I'm ok.
This is our new normal.
